Nananana, hey hey hey goodbye

So I know I said this blog would just be about entertainment and what not but I absolutely hate my old blog that was more personal so I'll be posting personal blogs on here until I make a new blogspot.

There's only two days until I leave Baltimore for good (well for about 3 months anyway) lol. I'm soooooo excited for college but I have to admit I am nervous as well. Just being in a totally new environment and with complete strangers is going to be a challenge for me. I'm a shy person by nature esp When I 1st meet people and esp when I first meet guys that I find physically attractive. I just like to figure people out before I can be comfortable around them. But in college its not like your the new kid in school. All the freshmen are the new kids in school and don't really know each other so we'll all be in the same boat. It is going to be sad like when my family leaves and knowing that there 4 hours away and I can't just leave and go see them whenever I want. But I know its going to be the best times of my life in college so I'm ready.

:)

An original by yours truly

My future is so bright. But it's been covered by these clouds for so long. Time has come for the rain to stop. I can already feel the suns rays beaming down on me. Only a matter of time now before it can finally shine in its entirety.

Fair weather friends

What is your definition of a friend? What is your criteria for a true friend? Is it loyalty? Is it to be trustworthy, for the friend to be HONEST? Is it support or for your friend to have your back in times of need? Is it someone to hang out and have a good time with? That is my definition. But apparently some of my friends must have different definitions for the word "Friend". We seem to contradict on that subject.

All I have to say is some of my "friends" have not been meeting my criteria of a friend lately. It makes me wonder what really is their criteria for a friend. They must have a different one b/c they act as a friend toward people as they would want a friend to act towards them right? Wrong. If some of my "friends" had the same or similar criteria for a friend as I do then they sure as hell have not been doing there part. So since I felt that they were not meeting my criteria I stopped following the criteria for them.

Now to relate back to the title of this blog these "friends" that I'm talking about are what I like to call Fair weather friends. They meet the criteria of a friend in their convience or when its beneficial for them. For example, if I'm at a party or event and we both end up being there, then they'll be a friend just b/c I'm there. Or they'll be a friend when their in need of some attention. OR they were just a friend b/c it was during school and we happened to hang out w/ similar people or usually were in the same places at the same time. So lame right? yeah I know. I need new friends and college is definately where I will find them. No more fair weather friends for me lol.

Seriously have you ever had a friend that you constantly were confused about the status of your friendship. Well I have a couple of those friends and let me tell you its exhausting. So I just gave up. IDC anymore. I have bigger and better things to worry about in life than this. Yes I care about you or used to. Yes we've had some wonderful memories together that I will remember for the rest of my life, but the end of this guessing friendship stats and stuff starts now. It does sadden me that I will eventually lose contact w/ most of the people I used to know and I will prob never talk to them again. But it also delights and excites me that I will gain BETTER friends in the future. I feel that I deserve it b/c I've had so many fair weather friends in my life. Now I will be doing my absolute best to keep in touch with a select few of the friends that I have now b/c they have maintained my criteria of a friend or have fallen off the criteria in the past and then regrouped themselves.

Well my rant is done. Thats all I had to say.

Peace :)